Well I just went through the last three years of my life in this crisis of figuring out what I wanted to do. I started to realize back in 92 that I was not as enthusiastic about the career I had been preparing for for about 5 years. It took me three years of back tracking, depression, and exploration to figure it out. I had repressed my real desires (artistic) for a more "stable" career. I had to hit the bottom, feeling like my life was worthless, before I would decide that I had to follow my true purpose. I think that we all KNOW what we are supposed to be doing in this life but we aren't listening to our inner voices. Our society tells us what we are "supposed" to want, and do and ranks certain professions over others which clouds our thinking. There are probably some people destined to be taxi drivers, transporting people around, but our society tells us we have to aspire to be a lawyer, doctor, whatever. Not that goals aren't good, but they may be SOMEONE else's goals and not really our own.
So the key for me was meditation, listening to my instincts and inner voice. I worked through meditation, yoga classes and any activity that would bring me into touch with myself. We spend so much time dealing with the external that it is no wonder why most people have no clue about what they really want. We tend to ignore our inner selves.
Celeste
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